no answers

does anyone care? does anyone see? am i too weak? is it my fault? what's going on? why does it have to be this way? why can't i fight it? does prayer even work? what's wrong with me? why can't i drive into a lamppost and alleviate the pain? would they care? it is worth it? why did that happen? am i being unreasonable? what am i supposed to do? does He care? am i blind? is anyone out there? will it ever end? what can i do to make it end? why did it ever have to start in the first place? will i ever change? why is this happening? where can i hide from it all? why me? what does it have to do with the future? why can't i tell the truth? will they ever see? what's going to happen? will i ever learn? does it even exist? will i always be alone in this? why?