no words.

from Rick Holland's Uneclipsing the Son

Job wanted to meet God in a court where each party could be represented by a Mediator. This request was granted on behalf of all mankind just outside the northwest wall of Jerusalem, on a hill called the Skull, on a primitive execution device called a cross. But the strangest thing happened at this court proceeding at Calvary.

Instead of both parties meeting together to work things out through the Mediator, they both abandoned Him.

Judas betrayed Him. The disciples fled for their lives. Peter denied Him three times. Worse, the Father Himself abandoned Him to horrific crucifixion and sinful punishment...

He alone bore the rejection. He alone bore the wrath. As a result, He alone bears the reward for all who place faith in Him.

i can't even describe what my insides did when i read that, and then re-read it. some mixture of turning and groaning and sinking and crying. imagine to be left in the courtroom...alone...pronounced guilty...yet innocent....and silent.

Jesus--you know my heart, though i cannot express it in written words.
thank you.