real joy

some days you're filled with happiness
not the kind that depends on circumstances
because nothing out of the ordinary happened today
but the kind that comes from inside
the kind that's thankful for pink roses and little ladybugs
the kind that makes you want to smile at the checkout lady at the grocery store
and ask her how her day was
joy that gives you energy to keep going
and enjoy the journey, not just survive it
i love the days
when you can go on and on about the blessings in life
like a new baby nephew
caring, genuine friends who call at 8:26pm to set up a lunch date
or who will chat with you online
though you're both supposed to be doing hw
goodnight hugs and big squinty smiles from a 2 year old
or a book on prayer
and the realization that life is short
and each day is a gift that shouldnt be wasted
on worrying or stressing
there's enough of that in the world

but for me, well....i'd rather laugh and smile tonight.