scream

i cannot explain it
yet another night it tortures me
with piercing looks and relentless words
pouring into my soul
when will i escape this haunting burden
that suffocates my bleeding heart
and tries to choke me
no concern for feelings or emotions
it presses forward
pressing down, harder
i am being crushed and overwhelmed
to the point that i can bear it no longer
save me, o God, i pray
for my nights are restless
my dreams become nightmares
and the joy i love is being stifled

i am fighting one of the hardest and scariest wars yet that i have encountered, but i know this is only the beginning, if what i long for comes true.


H